You know what your problem is? You get attached, fast. And once you’re attached to someone, you do everything you can to please them and make them happy. It’s never been about what you want, it’s always everyone’s needs before your own. You give out too many chances to people, who quite frankly, do not deserve them. They take advantage of you, and you become a pushover. But you’re okay with that, because they’re in your life and that’s all you ever really wanted. And even if they screw you over, you’ll still be there for them. Because that’s you, that who you are. Once you get attached to someone, they capture your heart and they always have a place there. And that is why it’s so hard for you to let him go.
Sometimes I hope we’re still friends when I get married. I hope that I’ll invite you to my wedding and you’ll come. Then you’ll see me as the happiest girl in the world. You’ll see me with a guy who treats me right and loves me more than himself. You’ll see all you could’ve had and you’ll regret letting me go, but the thing I want you to see the most is that I survived without you.
I feel like I’ve gotten a lot smarter since I’ve met you. Not necessarily within my brain but my heart. I learned a lot from you, I don’t fall for boys as easy anymore. I don’t believe all the things they say to me with such ease. I’ve learned not to take them serious. I guess this is a good and bad thing but I want to thank you. Thank you for teaching me not to put up with and believe bullshit.
"How long do I have to wait till I get into relationship again?"